as a kid you will find that being silent, dissociating, and giving in is the best way to avoid uncomfortable conflict. it's really really important that you eventually realize this doesn't work long term.
i swear white man literature professors are living their first day on earth as a human being sometimes. they get so excited to show you this thing they found and it's called "basic human empathy" except they only look at it and bat at it with a paw... like should i be taking notes?
cishet men really are born evil and have to repent every morning and night to achieve equilibrium except most of them don't keep up with the repenting at all
when you came in contact with the nature inside you did you set out to clean it or did you settle into your own filth?